'I let go of my Lambo, my 16,000sq foot home... and my marriage': Erika Jayne admits she packed up and left husband Tom Girardi without telling him as she addresses split on RHOBH

Erika Jayne has spoken about the breakdown of her marriage to Tom Girardi for the first time on The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.

During Wednesday night's episode, the 49-year-old reality star was seen arriving to Sutton Stracke's Parisian themed party looking like she didn't have a care in the world. 

However, as the ladies sat down for a caviar and champagne-filled lunch, Erika decided to get direct about her divorce, saying: 'Ok, let's discuss the elephant in the room.'

'My life drastically changed this week,' said Erika. 'I let go of my Lamborghini. I let go of my 16,000 sq foot home. I let go of my marriage. I let go of everything. I literally made the decision that I had to.'

Divorce: Erika Jane, 49, walked into Sutton Stacke's Parisian themed party looking like she didn't have a care in the world. Jane made an entrance and asked what was going on, but no one mentioned that they had heard about Jane's divorce

Discuss: The women sat down for a Parisian themed lunch full of caviar and champagne and didn't bring up Erika's divorce. Finally Erika said 'Ok, let's discuss the elephant in the room

Let go: 'My life drastically changed this week,' said Erika. 'I let go of my Lamborghini. I let go of my 16,000 sq foot home. I let go of my marriage. I let go of everything. I literally made the decision that I had to'

Erika said 'I left because he pushed me further and further out.'

Clearly upset, Erika said in her confessional that the conversations in her 20-year-old marriage to Tom Girardi had been reduced to a sentence or two. 'I just kept walking around that house knowing that this marriage was headed down a really sh**y path. I had to make a choice to do what was right for me. I couldn't live that way anymore.'

Erika told the women she didn't tell them in advance because she didn't want to put them in an awkward position.

Exes: Clearly upset, Erika said in her confessional that the conversations in her 20-year-old marriage to Tom Girardi had been reduced to a sentence or two. 'I just kept walking around that house knowing that his marriage was headed down a really sh**y path. I had to make a choice to do what was right for me. I couldn't live that way anymore'

Awkward: Erika told the women she didn't tell them in advance because she didn't want to put them in an awkward position

In her confessional, Erika said when she made the decision to leave that she spent 'a good 30 days closing out certain aspects of her life.' 'I cried every day, this was the end of a massive part of my life and this was basically stepping into a void.'

She told the women that she tried to work it out, but that she was met with such resistance. She said she had to make a change and filed for divorce on Election Day because she wanted it to get buried. She said timing is everything and 'as soon as I get a handle on what is coming for me and it will be coming for me.'

She said she didn't expect her marriage to end this way and that 'I was going to hold that man's hand until he died.' Erika said life happened. She invited all her friends to visit her at her new 'tiny baby doll house.'

Confession: In her confessional, Erika said when she made the decision to leave that she spent 'a good 30 days closing out certain aspects of her life.' 'I cried every day, this was the end of a massive part of my life and this was basically stepping into a void'

Tried: She told the women that she tried to work it out, but that she was met with such resistance. She said she had to make a change and filed for divorce on Election Day because she wanted it to get buried. She said timing is everything and 'as soon as I get a handle on what is coming for me and it will be coming for me'

Unexpected: She said she didn't expect her marriage to end this way and that 'I was going to hold that man's hand until he died.' Erika said life happened. She invited all her friends to visit her at her new 'tiny baby doll house'

During the dinner party, Kyle Richards, 52, tried to mend things with Dorit Kemsley, 44, after their fight on the plane. Kyle said she felt the fight was just like a sisterly dispute. Kylie told her 'I don't think that I deserved to be snapped at like that.' In the end there both agreed to talk more civilly to each other and to hear each other out.

Dorit also told Kylie that new cast member Crystal Kung Minkoff, 35, 'felt violated' in Tahoe when Sutton barged into her room to return her jacket. Crystal was naked at the time. Kylie said she felt that Crystal might have been making something out of nothing.

Erika told the women she wasn't so upset to leave the house, because she was the third wife that lived there.

Kyle: During the dinner party, Kyle Richards, 52, tried to mend things with Dorit Kemsley, 44, after their fight on the plane. Kyle said she felt the fight was just like a sisterly dispute. Kylie told her 'I don't think that I deserved to be snapped at like that.' In the end there both agreed to talk more civilly to each other and to hear each other out

Dorit: Dorit also told Kylie that new cast member Crystal Kung Minkoff, 35, 'felt violated' in Tahoe when Sutton barged into her room to return her jacket. Crystal was naked at the time. Kylie said she felt that Crystal might have been making something out of nothing

The next day Garcelle Beauvais , 54, met with a dating coach to help her find the perfect guy for her. Garcelle teared up when she thought about how difficult it was for her to trust men.

Over at Erika's 2,000 square foot new house her creative director and assistant came over to help her decorate and hang pictures. Erika said in her confessional that she left behind 22 years of a relationship and moved out of the house in one day.

'Its the uncertainty and instability,' that was unsettling. Her assistant told her to make one of her bedrooms her shoe room and the other bedroom her clothes room.

Coach: The next day Garcelle Beauvais , 54, met with a dating coach to help her find the perfect guy for her. Garcelle teared up when she thought about how difficult it was for her to trust men.

Erika recalled in her confessional one dinner with Tom where she arrived late because of traffic to meet his friends. One of his friends said at the dinner that if she was would have been with a better man that she wouldn't have had to deal with traffic. Erika said Tom just told that man 'well if you can afford her, you can have her.' Erika appeared to still be hurt by the comment.

'I always felt that I should shut up and be grateful to some extent,' said Erika. She said there was a 'human cost' to being in that marriage.

Meanwhile Kylie took Sutton for a mammogram appointment which she said was 'zero fun.' Her doctors gave her a clean bill of health. After the mammogram, Kylie mentioned how Crystal told Dorit that she felt violated by Sutton bringing her jacket to the room. Sutton said it was completely innocent and was just doing something to be nice. Kylie told her she needed to nip it in the bud with Crystal.

Erika confesses: Erika recalled in her confessional one dinner with Tom where she arrived late because of traffic to meet his friends

Grateful: 'I always felt that I should shut up and be grateful to some extent,' said Erika. She said there was a 'human cost' to being in that marriage

Zero fun: Meanwhile Kylie took Sutton for a mammogram appointment which she said was 'zero fun'

That night Lisa Rinna, 57, and Erika went out to a hotel for a drink. Lisa said she was really excited about her make up launch and the two cheered to 'new beginnings.' Erika said she has never felt this vulnerable but that Tom Girardi, 82, 'left her no room.' She said she didn't leave him a note and just left. She said she drove him to work and then put her things in the moving van. She said she spent the night at her new house and he was served with divorce papers the next day.

'I expect nothing but the worst, but I'm hoping for the best,' Erika told her.

Crystal invited her new friends over to her house the next night to make dumplings. Dorit, Sutton, Erika and Lisa, and Garcelle. Erik said she came over 'lit' because she used this THC intimate oil that Kylie gave her and she put it 'all over my cl** and over my vagina.' Erika said she is going to give herself 90 days with no sex.

New beginnings: That night Lisa Rinna, 57, and Erika went out to a hotel for a drink. Lisa said she was really excited about her make up launch and the two cheered to 'new beginnings'

Hoping: 'I expect nothing but the worst, but I'm hoping for the best,' Erika told her

Dumplings: Crystal invited her new friends over to her house the next night to make dumplings

Sutton went inside the house to talk to Crystal. Sutton told her 'I think it is very dangerous when we talk about each other behind each other's backs. Crystal said 'I agree. I promised you I wouldn't talk about it.

'You didn't do your promise,' Sutton told her. Crystal denied it and said that people keep bringing it up to her. Sutton brought Crystal outside to discuss it in front of the ladies and said 'it's a little defamatory to say that I violated you.' Sutton said they had a strained relationship in Tahoe but that she wasn't 'manic.' Crystal said 'I believe you.' Crystal said she wanted them to move forward and have fun tonight.

In her confessional, Sutton called Crystal a 'mean girl' and she was going to keep her eyes on her.

Crystal: Sutton went inside the house to talk to Crystal. Sutton told her 'I think it is very dangerous when we talk about each other behind each other's backs. Crystal said 'I agree. I promised you I wouldn't talk about it

Mean girl: In her confessional, Sutton called Crystal a 'mean girl' and she was going to keep her eyes on her

Crystal then brought the ladies in the kitchen to make dumplings. Kyle and Garcelle said the dumplings were so good that they couldn't stop eating them. Garcelle tried to convince Erika to see her dating coach, but she said no.

'I'm probably just going to a have a lot of anonymous sex,' Erika in her confessional. She said she really appreciated her friends during this trying time, but that 'I have so many challenges and there's so much that these women don't know.'

Real Housewives of Beverly Hills returns with a brand new episode Wednesday, June 30 at 8 PM ET on Bravo. 

Dumplings: Crystal then brought the ladies in the kitchen to make dumplings. Kyle and Garcelle said the dumplings were so good that they couldn't stop eating them. Garcelle tried to convince Erika to see her dating coach, but she said no

Anonymous: 'I'm probably just going to a have a lot of anonymous sex,' Erika in her confessional. She said she really appreciated her friends during this trying time, but that 'I have so many challenges and there's so much that these women don't know'

Return: Real Housewives of Beverly Hills returns with a brand new episode Wednesday, June 30 at 8 PM ET on Bravo